Utterly Inadequate

There are
times when I feel like superwoman and feel like I could do anything I set my
mind to. But more often, I feel ill-equipped and totally unprepared for what
lies ahead. Have you ever felt totally inadequate for the task at hand? There
have been times in my life when I knew God wanted me to do something and I not
only felt unprepared, but I also felt incapable. Fear threatens to paralyze us
in these moments, preventing us from moving forward in obedience to
Christ. 

Several
years ago, I was invited to be a part of a mission team going to a part of the
world that is hostile to the gospel. I knew that God had called me to go. The
trouble was that God didn’t share that calling with my family and friends. Many
were afraid for me and as they voiced their concerns, I too began to doubt my
calling. Did God really want me to go? What did I possibly have to offer this
people group? Surely I could pray for them from the safety of my own living
room.

A wise
friend once told me, “It’s when you feel like you have something to offer God
that He can’t use you. When we are weak, He is strong. He works best in us when
we admit we can’t do anything for Him, and yet we allow Him to do what we could
never do on our own — that way He gets ALL THE GLORY!!!

In the end,
I went on the trip, and I will never be the same. Looking from the rooftop over
the city, my heart broke as I saw millions of people who have never heard the
gospel. How will they hear unless someone tells them? I decided in that moment
that obedience is worth the price…even when it is costly.

Do I still
feel inadequate? Absolutely! But obedience to Christ has taken me places I
never dreamed I’d go (literally and figuratively) and I wouldn’t trade the
adventure for anything this world has to offer!